Perfect Diapason

When something gets too hot to handle, the pain too difficult to endure, man’s survival instinct gets the better of him… he run away from the offending threat. Instead of resolving a conlict, we simply walk away from it, letting go of an opportunity to change.  We’re depriving ourselves a chance to grow when we let go of something prematurely.  Should we stick around a bit longer we could find out that everything is not as bad as we conceived it after all.  Everything would make better sense.

When my maximum tolerance level has reached its peak… it’s there!  I have my moments, I just shut down. No amount of talking to will do.  Try arguing with me and you’ll get the feel of talking to a brick wall.  This negative defiance sure does turn someone nuts.  Nothing propels a raging bull to charge faster than seeing an unmoving target clad in red.  You simply step aside at the right, perfect moment.  Sure enough, the bull’s head meets the brick wall.

My way of dealing with a problem at the time may have worked at getting rid of it (temporarily) but what did I get from it besides the satisfaction of bruising somebody’s ego and having the bull feel and look like an idiot?  Differences could’ve been patched up, changes occured, conflicts resolved  if speaking our minds truthfully had taken place.  But no, I bailed out before those were achieved.  Someone in the past had hurt me so bad I casted him out completely out of my life.  No words.  I’m no less coward than he is.  To this day, it still ROBs me of sleep.  I know he’s still haunted, too.  I just hope we both learn to forgive each other.

Yeah, sure!  It’s so easy to say, “Face your fears,” but how do you face it when the source fears to face you and still causing ‘disturbances’?  Coward’s way out haunts you till the end.  Now, if I could just find that other scared ghost…  It’d be tempting to wrap my bare hands around his neck…

and wring it slowly… tightly… till his last breath    Hmmm, I guess am scaring him off further, docRebz.   But I’m not that violent really he’s safe.  I saved his ass before anyway.  It won’t hurt further to wait. FGFV‘ s creed:  “Patience is a virtue”.

Funny how things get bigger, complicated, destructive when left unattended.  Evade it, it pesters for decades.  When you’re just about ready to deal with it, it could be too late… the ghost (not you, moo moo:) is on another plane… still running away from himself…